I knew becoming a mom would mean giving up lots of little luxuries about life as I knew it.
I knew having many kids would mean giving up even more.
A good night’s sleep, reading a complete book, the biggest piece of cake, a clean piece of paper.
All these things I knew and was prepared for.
Clean floors, clean car, counter tops that aren’t sticky; it’s all just part of the deal and boy is it worth it.
But I’ve recently added a new item to the list of things to give up when having kids; something that I’m not so sure I had realized.
Having kids means giving up the luxury of completing a train of thought. To think something through from beginning to end, without interruption.
It’s the strangest thing. I just noticed that I have not posted a blog post in over two months. But here’s the thing; I’ve written at least 20 posts since then!
And that’s when it clicked.
I started to write 20 something posts…about trips to Walmart, 10 hour road trips, mismatched socks and kids leaving their shoes at home….and they are all still in the drafts folder of my brain; no, they never even made it to the keyboard. Because having kids does that to you.
It happens like this. I have a great idea, I feel the energy flowing, I’m ready to take it on….and then someone is calling from the bathroom to be wiped or something of the like and all is pushed into the drafts folder in the recesses of my brain.
I come back to reality a couple hours later and have time to pick up the thought. But by then, I can’t remember what it was to begin with.
Ahh, the joys of motherhood!
The things we start but don’t get to finish.
Like the marker on the banister on the steps heading upstairs.
How many times have I grabbed a Clorox wipe and marched in that direction, determined to finally complete the task of washing it all off, only to be called off by something much more important and urgent before I even reached my destination. Someone fell. Someone broke someone’s something. Issues that were far more pressing and in need of my attention. Things that deserve my time more than the banister does!
And that’s where all my blog posts are. In that place in my mind of unfinished thoughts and projects and tasks, that got pushed off the list because there are little people who need me.
The 76 emails in my drafts folder on my phone…how many times I started to type, and a spill or a cry called me away.
How many Facebook posts I started and never got to hit the POST button.
Sure, sometimes it’s frustrating, sometimes it’s annoying and sometimes it’s maddening!
But I will not fight it; I will embrace this discovery of incomplete train of thoughts with patience and humor.
It’s certainly worth the trade in.
BUT I am determined to figure out how to sneak a complete thought every now and then – because I do plan to keep posting. I’m not giving this one up.
And, as soon as I figure out the secret how to get it done; don’t worry, I will most certainly share it with you.